The boys have me at my wits end. Their fighting, their bickering, the constant tattletaling and crying has nearly caused me to do things I am sure would not win me the mother of the year award on numerous accounts.
But you know what, I'll take it. Because every night I get into bed ready to blog about my terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day and then I look at this blog and my heart breaks. I take a deep breath and thank God that I get to hear the noise of chaos coming from my three crazy boys. It's not fair. No mother should have to endure the loss of a child. No mother deserves to feel that pain. I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like. I just wish there was something I could say, or something I could do to take the hurt away. But I can't. I can't bring her baby back.
What I can do is hold my babies tight. Be thankful for every moment I have with them. And cherish the chaos that is my life because it is precious and every day is a gift.
This is why I can't blog. Whatever I may have to say about how tough my life is right now pales in comparison to the loss of a child.
3 comments:
Well said.
What a beautiful post!! I could have said the exact same thing...in fact I've thought about it a ton. Keep holding those babies cause God has given you each and every day. You're a fabulous mom! and I'm sure a fantastic nurse!
-Heather
That's such a good reminder, Jen! You're not alone in how you've been feeling, trust me.
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