Our Cleft journey… and so much more.

While having a husband gone is not easy and sometimes (a lot of the time) downright hard, it is made a little easier with the help of friends.  All I can do to keep my mind off how much I miss Dan and wish he was here is to keep busy.  Sometimes it feels like I never stop and when I do I get sad, frustrated, mad and just plain fed up.  Don't get me wrong, I am so proud of Dan and all that he has accomplished and I am SO proud to say my husband is a soldier.  However, I am just done with this deployment stuff!  I want my husband back!  I want our family together.  It isn't fair that he is missing out on so much and that we are missing out on our daddy!  

In an effort to keep busy Lauren so graciously took us to the lake cabin in Lake Chelan this past weekend.   While it can never totally be relaxing with a 4 week old and a 4 year old we had a lot of fun.  Tyler and Alex did wonderful on the 3 hour drive.   Sunday was a challenging day for Tyler.  Whether it is the new baby, having daddy gone or just being tired he is having s rough time lately.  Well, maybe I should say I am having a rough time.  He is perfectly happy to be talking back to me and constantly whining.  All of this would seem much easier to deal with, I am sure, with a full nights sleep!  The whining and defiance almost sent us home, but we rallied and made it to the water park.  I am so glad that we did.  It was 4 hours of good old fun.  There was no yelling, no discipline needed and the look on Tyler's face as we raced down the slides was priceless.  I so needed to see him happy like that because lately I feel like all I can do is upset him.  We all needed that!  Thank you Lauren for making this trip possible.  Although we(Tyler and I that is) had our moments, I think we all had a wonderful time.  There is no way I could have done it on my own.  I can't wait to do it again!

On the home front we are doing as well as can be expected.  Last night was a rough one.  Alex has turned a corner in the last few days, and not a good one.  He is wanting to eat every 1.5-2 hours and has been awfully fussy the past 2 days.  If he is not being held or fed he will let us know!  I feel as if he is having tummy aches because his cry is not just a I want to be held or changed kind of a cry.  He seems to think that the only thing to make him feel better is to nurse and then he gets even more upset because it hurts more.  Poor little guy.  If only he would take to the binky like Tyler did.  Tyler is a champ and does what he can to comfort his brother.  He doesn't seem phased at all by the crying.  On a good note he is more and more alert these days and has even flashed us a few smile (including at 3 am the morning when he was ready to play!).  I can't believe he is 4 weeks already.  Why must this time go so fast?

Tyler's last day of school is today.  We are very sad.  The Children's School has been a wonderful place for us and we are really going to miss it next year.  Let's hope that Our Lady of the Lake is as wonderful as TCS.  

Bring on the summer!